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2009-10-06T23:58:00.000-07:00

I see you - Mika

2009-09-30T23:28:00.000-07:00

I'm standing across from you
And dreaming of the things I do
I don't speak, you don't know me at all

For fear of what you might do
I say nothing but stare at you
And I'm dreaming
I'm trippin' over you

Truth be told
My problems solved
You mean the world to be
but you'll never know
You could be cruel to me
While we're risking the
way that I see you
That I see you [3x]
That I see

Conversations
Not me at all
I'm hesitating
Only to fall
And I'm waiting, I'm hating everyone

Could it be you fell for me?
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And any possible similarity
If its all, how would I know?
You never knew me at all but I see you
But I see you [4x]

I'm standing across from
you (But I see you)
I've dreamt alone, now
the dreams won't do (But
I see you)
I'm standing across from
you (But I see you)
I've dreamt alone, now
the dreams won't do (But
I see you)

Truth be told, my problem solved
You mean the world to me
But you'll never know
You could be cruel to me
While we're risking the
way that I see you
But I see you [4x]

I'm standing across from
you (But I see you)
I've dreamt alone, now
the dreams won't do (But
I see you) [4x]

my very fav quote

2009-09-27T02:13:00.000-07:00

they were right very much ???

2009-09-25T01:42:00.000-07:00

truth be told I never was a huge fan of that show ... I always find these gals like promiscuous ... I dunno ... maybe i was way young than ... it was ( still is ) all abu love , and hugh heels and dressing up and decoying guys ... these gals ... they always were meneaters for me ...

Now I see that I was wrong the whole time and these gals were right the whole time !!!! It is all abu dressing up and decoying guys and being mean to them ... yup they can look but cannot touch , they cannot afford the gal anyways so ... yeah ... just look very much ... and yea I cannot afford all the brands they wear and look like Sarah ( Carrie ) but I got my own thing ...

I lived a day when I guy I like so much tell me ... oh well I never see you in a crowd cos u r very short ... high heels maybe ??? u want it u got it !!!

I was always a kinda person that tells ...looks dont matter , and looks still dont matter to me ... I love my frens ... no matter if they wear Prada or Converse , Prada od rag ... BUT ... u will see ... this will not stay this way ...

rings a bell ???

2009-09-25T01:37:00.000-07:00

you will see , ypu silly boy ... u tell me I am short ... you will see ...

<33333

2009-09-23T22:48:00.000-07:00

MIKA!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont care what mean ppl say abu him
( abu his sexuality and stuff ) the only thing I know is that his last album THE BOYS WHO KNEW TOO MUCH is a blast !!! ^^ I love it ! My very fav is RAIN !!! But I love all the songs ... He is an artist in every way ... he sings very well ( some would say strange but strange is cool with me ) , he dresses COOL ( he is the style ) ... I was in owe when I was looking his latest vid WE ARE GOLDEN ... woooo some clothes he wears there ... I loved the gold sparking shoes ^^ And he is sooo cool <33333

2009-09-23T22:41:00.000-07:00

on repeat in mu Ipod

2009-09-23T22:37:00.000-07:00

UPRISING - MUSE

The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
The transmissions will resume
They'll try to push drugs
Keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around
(So come on!)

Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick the switch and open your third eye, you'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on!)

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

Chorus
They will not force us anekatips.com
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey ... hey .. hey!
(repeat)

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey ... hey .. hey!
(repeat)

=.=

2009-09-20T00:22:00.000-07:00

have u ever been pissed off just cos u cannot get angry at one particular person ...OMG he just cannot let me be mad at him ... yup that is me I always overreact and stuff ... but then I just see his name flash on msn and I am =.= ... cos we had a fight like 15 mins ago and I know that's over cos he says stuff to me and I cannot be mad ... he talks gently and kindly to me .. we r still not dating ... but when he goes on a party or something I tell him dont cheat on me .. he says I wont LOL

2009-09-11T11:40:00.000-07:00

I know we broke it . . .

u better not

2009-09-11T11:38:00.001-07:00

a heart that hurts is a heart that works

2009-09-11T11:15:00.000-07:00

and still funny how it keeps loving him with every single shattered piece ? right ? U broke my heart ... and u know u did ... and still I say it is okay ... it is always ok ..one thing I just cannot seem to change about the way I am ... no matter what ppl do it is always ok and fine to me ... I just accept ppl and things as they are ...

It was too good to be true anyways ... I know ...
What happened ? I dunno ... We were just too different... and u said that loud and clear ... u said I was strange ...
In any other situation , if some1 else told me that I'd be making jokes about it ...how being strange is cool and that ya shall all just pimp my style ... but I felt nothing but pain in the chest when u told me that !!!

I cannot describe what I felt ... I felt anger ... I wanned to cry and laugh at the same time ...
And then ... u told me u like the necklace I gave u so very much and u wear it ... and I said ok ... I don't care to be honest ...

U broke my heart and throw it in a trash can , u can do that with the necklace too ... U cannot comfort me now with saying that u like the thing I gave u ... in fact u cannot comfort me at all ...

I am not mad at u ... u just broke my heart ...

And it is fine , it is okay ...

But this time is the fucking last time I swear ... no guy EVER will do this to me , no guy ever will talk to me this way .. no guy ever will get near me ... NO GUY EVER!!!

I keep admiring some famous guys .. God I dunno ... God bless you tube I watched Brian Molko's vid for 45 mins ... I wanned to calm down from what u said to me ... have u ever sand your fav song from the top of your lungs and cried at the same time ??? HAVE U

I just did ... It hurts ... it really hurts ... the throat , the lungs hurt ...cos there's no enough oxygen ... but my soul hurts more , my heart hurts more ...

this is the fucking last time I swear ...

:(

2009-07-31T12:52:00.000-07:00

There's this guy that i recently started to like ... A LOT ... he is ...well ... he is ... u know ... * blinks*

Now he is otta town for the summer vacation ...

when I am sad ...

2009-07-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

my 2 favourite guys from the show <3

2009-07-25T11:36:00.001-07:00

simon
Luca

2009-07-25T04:05:00.001-07:00

I got to catch up on my studies ... OMG ... I get so annoyed and depressed when I study ... but the felling when pass an exam is great ...

RINGS A BELL ??????????

2009-07-25T04:04:00.000-07:00

ah ... my friends ...

2009-07-25T03:58:00.001-07:00

Truth be told I miss u ... and truth be told I am lying ...LOL

Well all I know that a good friend never stabs u in the back ... good friend always stabs you in the front , in the chest ...
My ppl always stab me in teh back ...so ... LOL
Nvm...I still got a few good ppl I can trust ... as for the rest of you ... I FUCKING DONT CARE ... I will not take all ya shit anymore ...

SUMMER SKI JUMPING BABY !!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-25T03:45:00.000-07:00

wow , long time ... no blogging ... I guess I just forgot about this thing ...
Well the 1sdt thing that comes up to my minds is that summer ski-jumping is coming up in August ...LOL ... I know it sounds funny ...it is a winter sport ...but this is summer addition ... Well ..dont u dare think that those ppl will jump naked lol...they will still be wearing their standard suits ..only summer addition lol.. I dunno ...and they will wont jump on snow ( of course) they will jump on something like polyesters grass ... BIG FUN ...

Well I love summer ski jumping ... the weather is sunny and cool ... the ppl are in a good mood and most important I GET TO SEE MARTIN SCHMITT ...wooohoooo ... I refuse to think he wont be there since he said he is thinking of retiring ... I don't wanna even thk about that ... that is just IMPOSSIBLE ... that guy has been there for like 10 years of my life , every season every winter and every summer .. don't u dare not be there this August U HEAR ME ???

2009-06-08T15:16:00.000-07:00

THE WORST THING ABOUT EMO BOYS IS WHEN THEY STOP BEING EMO ... THEY MAKE ME O.o+O.O+=.=+-.- AT THE SAME TIME

have u ever felt like dyng ???

2009-06-08T15:06:00.001-07:00

Have u ever felt like u r so stressed out that ya body just cannot take it anymore ...
Cos here what happened to me .. I studied until late 3 a.m ... woke up at 10 a.m ( God bless my mom , she already got me some croissant for breakfast ) got ready ... and yes I did not have the time for my coffee ( I knew that will cost me a lot ) ... and just hurried to catch the bus ... I was having classes from 11 to 17 pm ...

And suddenly my whole body collapsed , just crushed ... I cannot get it right ... I had my pain killers , had my coffee ( 2 big cups at once ) , had some decent lunch at home , had chocolate , got in the shower ... nothing helps .... NOTHING

At one moment I just thought to myself ..ok that is it ... this is where u die , cos my head started to be heavy ( lol =.= ) like I could feel my brain and I was in complete black out ...

I dont deserve this ... I dont deserve all this pain ...

2009-06-06T13:21:00.000-07:00

This is the man ... this is the man ... if he leaves I die .. He is 31 now .. I know I get it , I understand him , he sacrificed a lot for the sport , he has been in ski jumping since the age of 7 , he is a pride for his country ... He has been hungry for ages LOL ( yup they need to be very slim so they can like fly in the air and stuff =.= )

But he is my idol .. (I used to b in love with him when I was like 16 -.- ... ) but now ... like he said he is kinda old ... and wants to leave , have his own life ...

His gf ... he is effing gorgeous I adore her ... she stood by him ... and she is great , she is princess ... so beautiful

I just wanned to post this somewhere .. I just wanned to say pls Maddin dont go , but if u do we all understand , the fans will understand ...

I love u ( well used to perv u ) but now u r just my greatest idol ever

<3

butty

2009-06-06T13:16:00.000-07:00

I am a fucking role model?!

2009-06-06T02:37:00.001-07:00

There's the lil gal next door ...... God forgive me I am twice her age but I hate her ... that's it I said it ...My parents are like crazy abu her ... she is like very mature for her own age .. I dunno ...I don't like when lil kids are mature and advanced for their age .. I dunno .. My personal believe is that kid is a kid ... no need 12 old gal to talk to u by ur name ... that is so rude .. I dunnoI just dont like it that way ... But since my family is her fan ... what the heck I keep my mouth shot so I wont be the bitch and the bad guy (everytime)So i just say hi ... to her .. =.=Once I was caming down the staris , going to school and she was climbing up ... i said hi , she replied ...As I kept on walking down I could feel her eyes on me .. like ... scanning me .. like old grannies do , are u familiar with that .. when u walk by some granny and she looks at u ... like what u wear , and eveeything ... and in case u know the old witch she makes some comment abu ya weight ( if u r a gal , cos I know I have been told like ... hey u r so very nice gal , but a bit too chubby , dont u thk ... ? THAT granny is dead ... )I can feel her eyes on me ... I like was what on Earth ??????????????=.=okay ...I came home and like told my parents .. yes I was mean ... i used some cynical words .. nad they told me that I was just being mean .. that lil gal looks at me cos she looks up to me =.=So I am role model now ? Well that's a new!!!!!!!I knew I was a fool , but being a role model is refreshing ..must say ...